Sunday, April 29, 2012

About my Blogger Break...

As I sit here on a Sunday afternoon, with this view I thought I should be able to put it all out in words.

yes those are my boys playing on our swing set. Its 2p.m. on Sunday and they are both still in their PJ's. Ben Henry has somehow lost his shirt, but I guess that's ok.

I haven't felt like blogging much. I'm not sure if it was one reason in particular or if it was a combination of a lot of reasons.
I spoke to a great friend last night who told me to write it all down and let it sit if I still wanted to post it then post it. I said ahh the hell with it ...just put it out there...either people read it or they don't. right?

Sometime I feel like what I am writing about isn't relevant to others.
My projects arrant as crafty as others. ( i know that doesn't matter but I wanna be a cool kid deep down)
Sometimes I feel like I am venting more than writing about positives in my life
and I don't want my blog to become that.
I don't know how to balance it all.
School has run me ragged and I gave it my all this year.
(17.5 days left! Think I'm counting?)
I wanted to start my own business with my party banners and acrylic cups and that never happened and I'm a little depressed by that.

Speaking of depressed. I was on post partum meds after Ben Henry. He is now 2. I stopped taking the meds after my FIL passed away. Seeing that I stopped them at that time probably wasn't the best idea, but they say hindsight is 20/20 right?
I don't think/feel I am depressed in the clinical sense but I just think I am normal and that the meds made me more upbeat and able to handle things a bit better. Does this make sense to anyone? anyone? hello? this thing on? LOL

Thanks for letting me get all this off of my chest yet again.
I do have things to blog about-

My sister is getting married and I could do a whole series on Bridezilla vs the anti bride
Me being the Bridezilla she being the anti bride

Lots of showers to plan for her

Eli's 5th birthday- cant decide between alligators or football theme

Later Gators!!


  1. If it makes you feel any better, It's 3:48pm here, cartoons still on full blast and Derek is running around playing army in his underwear. :) I've missed you Lauren, happy to see this post! :) I enjoy reading EVERY post of yours- so know that!! Can't wait to see your wedding posts and Eli- 5? no way!! I vote for Alligators!! Sending you love and a little push since your ALMOST done with School! whoohoo! Jen

  2. I love reading your posts! I hope your days are getting better, and I can totally understand how sometimes you just don't want to blog (I'm feeling that way, and I feel that I have a whole lot of nothing to offer other than my rambling most days.) Seems like you have plenty to look forward to coming up :) Hope you're having a great day!

  3. Welcome back friend! We all get the blues sometimes! But weddings and 5 year olds birthdays! What fun!!!

  4. I know I'm always behind on reading, but I do love to read your posts!